Sunday, January 25, 2009

Fuck you Flo.

  • Fuck you for coming so fucking early.
  • Fuck you for coming at all.
  • Fuck you for causing me pain.
  • Fuck you and your stupid games.
  • Fuck you for making me have to go through more Gonal-F injections.
  • Fuck you for making me have to go to the hospital to get MORE blood sucked from my body.
  • Fuck you for making me have to go get Miss Puss probed with the dildo cam.
  • Fuck you for making me feel like a failure.
  • Fuck you for making sure I have to have another IUI.
  • Fuck you for making me have to deal with all of the awful side effects I get from the injections.
  • Fuck you for making sure I didn't get pregnant.
  • Fuck you for letting me buy a pregnancy test.
  • Fuck you for waiting for me to piss on that stupid little stick and then showing up 1/2 hour later.
  • Fuck you for making me cry.
  • Fuck you for bursting my bubble.
  • Fuck you for making my boobs hurt, and making me think that maybe....just maybe I MIGHT actually be pregnant.
  • Fuck you. I pretty much hate you.



I'm feeling pretty down. More so than I thought I would. This fucking blows.

Sorry about all the fucks. You should have heard me in the bathroom when Flo arrived. I could have made a sailor blush. Looks like I will be calling my RE's office tomorrow to report day 1. FUCK!

8 comments:

Megan said...

I'm so sorry.

Lea said...

I'm sorry too. It does suck so, so much. I'm counting IUI #1 as the practice run. Let's make this one count. Big hugs.

Amber said...

I'm sorry.

Are you sure it's not implantation bleeding? The reason I ask is because that would come a little earlier than a period...if it's to early for the test to pick it up you could get a false negative pregnancy result.

Sorry to be optimistic, it's just how I was when we were having problems conceiving, so immediatly I thought of this. It would be wonderful if I were right. If not, I wish you luck and sanity for next time.

Hopeful said...

I"m sorry. That really sucks, I know the feeling.

Jenn said...

I'm sorry. That blows.

Donnamarie x said...

Im so gutted for u babe !!
Good Luck with No2 !!. x x x x

Martin said...

Bollocks.

Stace said...

So sorry. No matter how much you prepare yourself for the "no", it still hurts when you get it. A. LOT. I know there's nothing really to say to make you feel better, but I hope you are doing okay!