Friday, January 13, 2012

I feel....lost.

I've been in a REALLY bad place lately. And I cant even talk about it. Theres one person in the whole world who knows everything. I'll call her Poodle. Poodle has been my fucking rock. The ONE person to stand by me holding my hand through everything, regardless of my choices. If it wasnt for her, I would have totally crumbled. Words cannot even describe how lucky I am to have her in my life.

Some shit went down in 2011, that I will never EVER forgive myself for or forget. Ever. I'm trying to be a whole person again. But I dont think its possible. I dont know what to do or where to go. I feel alone and sad. Let me clarify that my divorce has ZERO to do with anything I am feeling. That was the best thing to come out of 2011.

I think I'm going to start writing again more frequently. Maybe it will help me. Maybe it wont. Who the fuck knows.

I just know I need something.

5 comments:

911 and the Randomness.. said...

Write to your hearts content!
Glad you have Poodle!!
And if you need a random stranger, send me an email.

911R

KimHatesThat said...

I hope your year is better this year. I know how it feels to be in a bad place, and it's a horrible feeling.
Feel better :)
Poodle sounds like a great friend to have!

Jane G said...

Good to hear from you. Hope 2012 holds brighter days x

Courtney said...

I've missed you! I hope 2012 brings some joy for you!

BIG BIG BIG HUGS!!!!!!

womb for improvement said...

It is possible. Keep writing your way out of it.