This woman. Something about her being pregnant hurt me. When she dropped off her prescription for pre-natals, it actually caused me pain. She was my big red button. I don't know whether it was the fact that I had just dispensed Tylenol with codeine to her earlier this morning. Or if its the fact that she is on state insurance. Or maybe it was her disgusting rotted teeth as she handed it to me. Or maybe it was the guy in the car with her(both were smoking) that looked like he probably wouldn't think twice about knocking around a woman...or child for that matter. I don't know which one of these things hurt the most. Or maybe its just everything. She gets to have a baby. I don't. WTF!?
My eyes watered up. I felt myself getting ready to "boo boo lip" it. I did manage to pull it together, I held back the water works....but it wasn't easy. Life aint easy sometimes though right?
I told my husband today that I wished I could have more hope for this cycle. And he said that wishing for hope, was like having hope. I don't know if I agree with that.
I know 4 pregnant woman in real life. And one that just gave birth not to long ago. I see pregnant people at work ALL DAY. So many of the woman on my blog list are pregnant(I love you all and am SOOOOO happy for you guys!!) So, when do I get to be one of them? When is my big red button going to vanish?
And now for your amusement....because honestly it amused the shit outta me.....another big red button.
|The Red Button|
Yes, you have been warned! Do not press this red button even if you really want too. Just don't do it! But, we are for certain you will anyway.