Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I cant find time to be infertile.

Which is kinda a huge fucking problem don't ya think?

I just don't have time to do fertility treatments. How does someone who is dealing with infertility, get pregnant when she doesn't have time to do the fucking treatments?

All the doctors appointments. All the monitoring. My RE's office is almost an hour away from home, and almost an hour and a half away from work. I caught hell at work the last time. And we really cant afford for me to miss so much time.
The last time was so hard. Between missing tons of time at work, and getting shit on because of missing that time. The side effects. And having to ship the Monkey off to his fathers house for so many nights because K and I had to hit the road by 6-6:15am. And it didn't even work.
Add those things into my already busy day. No wonder my fucking eye is still twitching.
I don't know if I can do it again. I just don't know.

Its obviously not going to happen the "natural" way. Over 20 months has proven that. So now what? What does a girl do when her husband cant get her pregnant, but she cant find the time to have the treatments?

Do I try clomid? I ovulate just fine, but it ups the chances right? And from what I understand I wouldn't have to be monitored as closely. Right? That might help a little. Cutting down the number of days that I would have to miss time at work.
Or do we try an un-medicated IUI? The problem with that is, in my tiny little mind all I can think is "the IUI didn't work when we used fertility drugs! How on earth would it work without them?!"

I just don't know what to do.

We're infertile. And I don't have time for that.


Melissa said...

crazy that there isn't a closer office... I feel like those things are everywhere.

I haven't done the research about Clomid yet (didn't realize it only helps with ovulation)...but someone was writing on other blog about having the husband take motrin and something else for a few days in the beginning of the month. Have you heard about that?

Jenn said...

Our dr's threw me on clomid even though I was ovulating fine. Their theory(as I understood it) was to try for superovulation and get more mature eggs and then in turn have more targets for the swimmers to run into...

Lea said...

I don't know that the Clomid will help. Maybe you could focus on some home treatments to deal with MFI. I know some people that have sent their DH's to acupuncture and/or taken herbs/vitamins to improve quality. I don't know if you've looked into any of this, but it might help. (shrug)

I know it's time consuming and frustrating and painful. I hope you find something that works for you.

Sarah said...

Melissa- Apparently, not around here. I think the closest one is about 40 minutes or so away. I've never heard of the motrin thing.

Jenn-I did Gonal-F last time. Obviously it didnt work.

Lea- I dont know what WILL help.

womb for improvement said...

If you find out the answer, go and tell me, yeah?

Melissa said...

oh, and because I have no other way of telling you that my last post was a passive aggressive snap at a family member...I am telling you here.

striving for attention my ass.

Bottoms Off said...

can you monitor closer to home. I have heard of people doing this. Infertility is my crappy part time job. The pay sucks, the hours suck, and there is no fucking job satisfaction what so ever.

I had no/zip/zero monitoring on Clomid.

'Murgdan' said...

I hear ya, woman. I hear ya. No time for this shit.

Sarah said...

WFI- I was hoping YOU could tell me....but yea, if by some friggin miracle I figure it out, I'll certainly share!

Melissa- Oh no they didnt! Someone actually said you are striving for attention?!

Bottoms off- But who would monitor me? My OB? I dont think she handles this kinda stuff.

Murgdan- None. And it makes me weak with sadness.

Melissa said...

yeah. the funny part is, when you have a baby, it's the ultimate un attention getter (the baby gets the attention, not the mom). I can email you the myspace message she sent me (would need email)...she is my sister in law and we haven't ever gotten along, but she's pregnant and thinks I want to be pregnant to upstage her or something.