Tuesday, February 23, 2010

11dpo

And I didn't even test this morning. Why? Because I am fucking SICK of seeing negative pregnancy tests! Sick I tell you!

I've come to accept that I'm going to have to do this again. All the injections. All the blood draws. All the dates with the dildo cam. The crinone. All of it. Again.

Fuck.

Its not fair. Why the fuck didn't it work this time? No one has answers. I know I certainly don't. What I do know is I have ONE more chance with an IUI and then I'm going to have to try IVF.

IVfuckingF. Gah!!

And yes, I realize that people have gotten negatives at 11dpo only to get a positive later at 12 or 14dpo. But I have a gut feeling. I just know. It didn't work.

Fuck.

13 comments:

AmyC623 said...

I'm so sorry :(
I know the feeling of not being able to BELIEVE that IVF is the only option. How did this happen to us!?!?!?!?

Amber said...

So you did get a negative, or you didn't? Either way, there is still hope :) I remember waiting until day 35 because I just KNEW I would get my period as soon as I peed on the stick...and I was pregnant. Stay positive!

Casey said...

*hugs* Sarah. Keep your chin up. DO NOT GIVE UP YET. Don't test until March 1....I told you, do not force me to hand out your picture and come to your house to repo your utensils. Love you.

womb for improvement said...

Quite. I V Fucking F. Eloquently put.

You've still got a chnace though.

womb for improvement said...

Or, as it is more commonly spelt - chance.

Sarah said...

Amy- I dont know how it happened to us. Or why we cant make it unhappen, it seems. It fucking sucks.

Amber- I got a negative on days 9 and 10, so I refused to test today.

Casey- I'll hide them! You cant have my pee sticks!!

WFI- I hope you're right. I hope I have a chnace.

WFI- What?! You mean I dont actually have a chnace?! Shiiiiit!
lol ;)

Megan said...

I know that feeling. I hope you are wrong.

'Murgdan' said...

Daaaaaammit. I'm sorry.

myprettyones said...

Ugh. I totally know the feeling. I hate this too. Hugs.

April said...

I'm still hopeful for you this cycle, woman. On 11dpo for me, the line was all but invisible (no one but me actually saw anything). You still have a chance...that's my answer and I'm sticking to it. Damnit.

Xbox4NappyRash said...

Shit I dunno. Either way, best of luck.

Kansas said...

That sucks honey, I'm sorry. It's not fair.

I don't want to say keep your hopes up bc it's only 11 dpo, because when you know it didn't work, you just know.

I had a similar experience as April though. At 11 dpo anyone that had seen my pee stick would have thought i was a complete whack job for thinking there were 2 lines.

boby said...

Hi everyone, I am at 11 dpo today, really tempted to take the test but too scared :) Think I will wait...