Friday, February 26, 2010

14DPO

And its over.

I started spotting last night. And its heavier today. *sigh* Its over.

I cant believe it didn't work. Again. I'm devastated. And I am 100% dreading doing this again. All the injections, all the horrible blood draws (my poor arms are just now back to normal), missing time at work ( so far, my boss is being decent...who knows how long thats going to last for though) and the crinone...oh goddess, the crinone. My poor vagina.

I'm sad. I'm confused. I'm angry, oh so angry....

Why didn't it work? Why??

I just put the call into my clinic to report CD1. So, I'll probably have to go in tomorrow or Sunday for a baseline and blood draw. And as long as there are no "left over follicles", I'll move forward with the cycle. And if there is? Fucking birth control. Which I LOATH. It makes me have breakthrough bleeding. My body, the useless whore that she is...has been put through hell, and for nothing. Nothing!!

...I just talked to one of the nurses at the clinic, I'm scheduled for 7:30 tomorrow. She is changing the crinone to endometrium suppositories. Thank goddess!! I'll try anything if it means no more crinone.

11 comments:

Kansas said...

There's nothing more frustrating than a failed cycle. I'm sorry:( That sucks.

Mols said...

DAMNIT! I am so sorry that it didn't work, Sarah. It never makes any damn bit of sense. If it's of any comfort, I am on the endometrin and really don't think it is all that bad. I have never tried the other one they had you on, though. Have you considered the injections?

Sarah said...

Kansas- Indeed.

Mols- These were the only two things offered to me at this point.

Megan said...

I'm so sorry.

Courtney said...

Damn it!

Keepontrying said...

That really sucks...sorry

are you going to try more IUI's or on to IVF?

Womb For Improvement said...

I hate it. Hate having a medicated cycle because secretly I think we all believe medical science is infallible. Then discovering it isn't is worse than a normal negative.

PJ said...

I'm so sorry. I was really holding out for a late positive for ya.

Xbox4NappyRash said...

Sorry. It's shit.

Bon said...

I'm sorry. (((hug)))

I know exactly what you feel like right now. For reals.

April said...

I'm so, so sorry, hun. I've been thinking of you.