Thursday, April 22, 2010

My WTF appointment.

I've made it. My IVF consultation appointment is set for May 12th at 3pm. One of two things will happen, either I'll end up pregnant this time because I had the forethought to make my IVF consult ahead of time. Or, I'll be set and ready to go when I end up NOT pregnant, again. Either way, I'm ahead of the game. Take that infertility.

As far as this appointment goes....I'm at a loss. I feel like there are a million questions I SHOULD be asking. And yet, the only one I have is "why the fuck am I not pregnant?!" I feel like I put blind faith in these people because I don't know what to ask. I mean, I guess we all put some degree of blind faith in our doctors...but considering I've been at this for almost 3 years, I don't feel all that educated. I know stuff. I just don't feel like I know the right stuff. Like....what I should be asking at this WTF appointment. Are there additional tests I should be requesting for either myself or my husband? Is there something different we should have been trying? I just don't know. Anyone have advice for me? Please?

As for whats going on with this cycle...nothing. Well, nothing of interest. My boobs are freaking killing me, but thats a nice combo of the trigger shot and the progesterone doing that. Good times. Goooooooodtimes!

Like I said in my last post, if this cycle proves to be another fucking failure, I'm taking at least a month off to shed some poundage. I'll start the strict diet again, and start working my ass off. AGAIN. And while the thought of doing that makes me want to cry, the thought of being a heffalump makes me want to puke. So, I'll take the tears.

Gah, time to get ready for work. Which by the way....I still hate. In case you were wondering.


Amber said...

Have you tried acupuncture? Worked for me in between the 2nd & 3rd babies. Good Luck!

Mols said...

We never got any further answers about why our 5 IUI's weren't working - we just moved on to IVF. I don't think that we had any further testing done, either.

My thinking with our situation was poor timing and lousy thawed sperm that couldn't find their way.

If I were you, I would request ICSI for the IVF - as the chances are a little better (for us it was only a couple hundred dollars more).

Wish I had more advice, best of luck that this WTF appointment isn't necessary!!

Keepontrying said...

I also recommend adding acupuncture to the mix! Find one that specializes in infertility. My Doctors didn't have additional testing for me in between iui and ivf.

myprettyones said...

I wouldn't know what to ask either. Aren't they supposed to know?! I wish you lots of luck and hopefully you won't even have to go to that appt!

P.S. Sorry about work. ugh.

♥ Jennerific ♥ said...

Just wanted to stop by and say that I think you are strong and wise for staying the course. Your blog makes me appreciate what I have. Thank you.

AmyC623 said...

I never asked the right questions either, really. I don't think the MD's really like questions - they just want to tell you what they want to do. ESPECIALLY IVF RE's. In my modest experience (2 places, 2 cycles) they just want to tell you about THEIR program and what to expect - they don't REALLY want to get to the bottom of what's going on. Apparently the results (success rate) are the same whether they really knew what was wrong or not. That's my 2 cents - probably not all that helpful!!! Love you, girl!

Sarah said...

Amber- No, I havent tried that. Yet.

Mols- I dont freakin understand. It SHOULD have worked by now.

KOT- That seems to be the consensus :)

MPO- Wouldnt that be great!?

Jennerific-'re welcome? lol I dont feel very strong. Or wise for that matter.

Amy- Yea, I guess we are just supposed to sit down, shut up and hope for the best. * sigh *
Good to hear from you BTW! Love ya bunches!

Just me said...

After being told there appeared to be no reason we shouldn't be able to conceive, 3 IUIs (or four? I'd have to look it up... I don't even remember anymore...), 1 IVF with failure to fertilize, 1 IVF with icsi, and a resulting miscarriage, they finally decided to do the same testing they would do on someone who has recurrent miscarriages. Lo and behold, we have a chromosomal abnormality. This 3rd IVF they found that A QUARTER of our embryos (at least the one's that survived to biopsy) were affected by that abnormality.

So yeah. That. It's not like the tests are hard- it's just blood tests. My doctor told me they hadn't done it before because they didn't "have a reason" since "a lot of people experience what you have". Grrr.

But it might be worth asking about. We would have never known otherwise.

Sarah said...

Just me- Yea, it started with mild MF, at least thats what my old RE told us. Now, with the new guy he is deeming us as unexplained IF. Because apparently, K's semen analysis isnt really all that bad. I've got a 9 year old from my previous marriage, so I assume I'm ok....key word...ASSUME.

Kalina said...

Dear Sarah - good luck on your IVF appointment! I never tried IVF because of male factor but ICSI worked at the end - when IUIs never did...
There is a much better chance with IVF/ICSI!
I must apologise for my long disappearance which i'm explaining in my new blog with the same name. I only yesterday signed in after a long absence.
Good luck again!

Gwen said...

I'm sorry you have to go through all this to get your baby.

Sarah said...

Kalina- Welcome back my friend!

Gwen- Yea. Me too.

Courtney said...

I tried acupuncture- the cycle I got preg I didn't do acupuncture cause it was so expensive. Did the previous months help? I don't know

I hope you don't need the IVF consult.

I don't know about the testing either or what questions to ask, cause I always felt "dumb" there.

lowfatlady said...

I hope that you do end up pregnant and don't have to go through ivf.

KandiB said...

Our four IUI's never worked either. I don't know why. I wish I would have saved the $$ for another IVF!!

Accupuncture really seemed to help when we finally got pregnant via IVF. If for nothing else - it totally helped me relax. It's such a stressful time.

BUT HEY!! Maybe you won't need all my stupid advice and you'll defy odds and get knocked up this month! Fingers and toes crossed!

April said...

I don't have any words of advice, unfortunately, but I'm thinking of you. And praying!