My husband and I are getting a divorce.
My heart is broken.
I feel like I've come apart at the seems.
Monkey is devastated. And it KILLS me to see him so utterly shattered. My heart breaks a little more every time I see him hurting. As a mother, its my job to protect him. And I cant protect him from this. Its our reality. My husband and I are getting divorced.
I try to put on a smile and go about our lives. For him.
But now, when I'm all alone (Monkey is at his daddys house) I feel like I'm dying. I wander around not knowing what to do with myself. And I cry. I cry when I think about my son being sad. I cry when I think about my marriage ending. I cry when I see something that reminds of K. I cry when I look at his cat, who is so sad now that he isnt here. I cry when I think about being alone. I cry when I think about being a single mother again.
I just cry. A lot.
I'm in a bad place right now. And I need to find my way out. I need to be OK for my son. I have to pull it together.
I just dont know if I can...