Wednesday, August 20, 2008


Is the first visit of what I'm assuming will be many with our RE. I'm excited, I'm nervous, and I'm a little pissed.

Excited: This is the next step....the next step to having a baby. I hope.

Nervous: I have NO clue what to expect from this visit. Is it just a consult? Am I going to be violated again? Is DH going to have to make a donation? Will she say something about my weight? Maybe I should send her a copy of my blog....y'know as a heads up about my weight issues.
Its all a mystery to me. I don't like being in the dark. I'm afraid of the dark.

Pissed: I'm pissed we have to do this at all. Y'know what...I'm pissed for ALL of us, that ANY of us have to jump through hoops, and get stuck with needles, and have our girly bits examined by total fucking strangers on a regular basis. I'm pissed that we cant just get pregnant for whatever reason. I'm pissed that we all have to feel the pain of NOT being pregnant. Or the devastation of loss.
I'm having a pity party for us all. Its going to be short lived, so join it now if you'd like. Please no alcohol....we all know we aren't supposed to drink the stuff...y'know now that we're TTC. Oh, no coffee either. Caffeine is bad news to apparently. Cheese and non-alcoholic wine will be provided. But not to much cheese. Then we'll get constipated. And then we'll all be full of shit and TTC. Now doesnt that sound fun?

So, yea. Tomorrow. Who knows. Who fucking knows.

PS....still fuckin tweaked about the HSG.
I think maybe I'll ask Dr.C tomorrow if we can just pump DH full of super sperm drugs BEFORE we enter my cervix and fill my friggin uterus full of dye. I'm thinking that sounds like a goooooood idea. Leave my cervix ALONE. Shes done nothing wrong.


seriously? said...

Thanks for stopping by today. I know my MIL is trying to be nice and stuff, it just seems to come out wrong. Doesn't mean I didn't want to smack her.

Just a comment about my first RE visit...I thought it was a consult, but apparently since I was on CD15, he wanted to get a gander. I had NEVER been seen by a boy doctor down there nor had I had any experience with the vag cam. Totally weird and unexpected but I was glad it was done without me having time to panic or get nervous. My HCG wasn't bad. I went to a place that does LOTS of them on purpose. I had a female radiologist too. No worse than a few cramps.

Good luck, let us know how it goes!

Sarah said...

Well, I'll be on perhaps I'll have my very first date with a Vag Cam too. OOOOOOO! How exciting! *she said, dripping with sarcasm*

Thanks so much for your input, it really helps to hear from the people who havent had horrific experiences. I appreciate the others too though, I just want to know what to expect. Either way.

Xbox4NappyRash said...

I would guess, and thats all it is, there will be nothing too invasive on your first visit.

Appointments are usually made for samples, so at worst I would guess you get an ultrasound, and a lot of questions!

Good luck.

keir said...

This DH is just as nervous, and just as concerned about all the invasion (isn't that MY department?) that could result from subsequent appointments. I may not be one to step up and say, "Hey, let's load me full of unpronounceable medications!" but in light of the potential alternatives, hand me a big glass of water and point me at the pill bottle...

Sarah said...

And this is just ONE of the many reasons I married him!

Aint he great?!

Murgdan said...

Good luck at your appointment tomorrow. I just recently had my first IF consult as well...and have an HSG and US all lined up within the next two weeks (YIKES). Hubby's working to 'squeeze in' his first SA as well...So. What a fun infertile party we've been invited to.
(Oh. And he never said one thing about my weight.)

Lollipop Goldstein said...

Don't tweak over the HSG. Just take valium or a relaxant beforehand. I think if you go in knowing that it might hurt, it actually hurts less. It's worse when it's a surprise. Good luck tomorrow at the first RE appt!

Deborah said...

Thanks for your comment and you are so right. I am a bit two fold, dark sense of humor with an overly sensitive nature. Try that for confusing!