Monday, September 29, 2008

Three, ah ah ah!


*Insert "The Count" Voice here.*
Three days to go.

I'm not pregnant. I peed on a stick today, and just as I suspected...no baby for me. *you can stop doing the Count voice now*

I gave in to hope. Dumbass. Oh well.

Next step please!!
Now I wait until Thursday, and call the RE. Set up the HSG....gee this all sounds like the post I did yesterday. How original. *sigh* Oh fucking well.

Isnt it wicked, how similar PMS signs and early pregnancy can be? Its rude if ya ask me. Nasty trickery. And not fair. Not fair! If I wasnt so damn tired I would stomp my feet and yell. However my ass is dragging something fierce today. Sooooooo sleepy.

Honestly I'm not really worried about the HSG anymore. I guess after you stress, and stress and freak yourself out enough and then that thing doesnt happen, when it finally comes around, its no big deal. I'm there. I just want to do it, and MOVE ON! I'm tired of feeling stuck. I'm tired of feeling hopeless. I'm tired of trying for something I really dont believe we can do on our own. I'm just tired. Dammit!

I feel like a hampster running on a wheel. Weeeeee! Round and round we go.....

5 comments:

April said...

Yeah and why is that, that the PMS symptoms are SO MUCH like pregnancy symptoms? It's totally a smack in the face. :-P

I'm so sorry. It freakin' sucks. I want to stomp my feet for you. :-(

SAHW said...

Agreed...totally unfair about symptom similarity. I thought I was pregnant for every month for a year and a half, and then when I finally was, I was sure I wasn't...the symptoms are literally exactly the same.
Hopefully the HSG won't be too bad, and you'll be moving forward, which is a good thing. :)

Courtney said...

That sucks!! I am prescribed those progestrone suppositories and they get me every month!! I know they cause me to "feel" pregnant- yet I do it every month!! It just isn't fair!!

Xbox4NappyRash said...

Onwards and upwards as they say!

(what an utterly useless comment eh?)

Michelle said...

:(
I shared your disappointment last month. And I got fooled by the similarities too...
That's a very sweet gift :)