Monday, September 29, 2008
Three, ah ah ah!
*Insert "The Count" Voice here.*
Three days to go.
I'm not pregnant. I peed on a stick today, and just as I suspected...no baby for me. *you can stop doing the Count voice now*
I gave in to hope. Dumbass. Oh well.
Next step please!!
Now I wait until Thursday, and call the RE. Set up the HSG....gee this all sounds like the post I did yesterday. How original. *sigh* Oh fucking well.
Isnt it wicked, how similar PMS signs and early pregnancy can be? Its rude if ya ask me. Nasty trickery. And not fair. Not fair! If I wasnt so damn tired I would stomp my feet and yell. However my ass is dragging something fierce today. Sooooooo sleepy.
Honestly I'm not really worried about the HSG anymore. I guess after you stress, and stress and freak yourself out enough and then that thing doesnt happen, when it finally comes around, its no big deal. I'm there. I just want to do it, and MOVE ON! I'm tired of feeling stuck. I'm tired of feeling hopeless. I'm tired of trying for something I really dont believe we can do on our own. I'm just tired. Dammit!
I feel like a hampster running on a wheel. Weeeeee! Round and round we go.....