If someone had told me 18 months ago that I would be on birth control to try....I stress the word TRY to have a baby, I would have laughed till my coffee came out of my nose. And yet here I am. Taking birth control. So I can TRY to get pregnant. Its so fucking weird. I mean I get it...I know why I am taking it. Its just a mind fuck.
And I gotta say right now, my entire life is a mind fuck. I'm starting to question myself left and right....am I out of my fucking mind trying to get pregnant??? Don't misunderstand, I want a baby so very badly. And I love my son more than I can articulate. But...well....things are tough right now. Things are very tough.
My emotions have been riding high, and so I'm trying desperately to take a step back and look at things with an intelligent mind and not an emotional heart. Its a bit difficult I must say.
Am I losing it? Has anyone else in their journey TTC hit that point where you just suddenly have to stop and ask yourself...."am I out of my mind?"