Thursday, May 28, 2009

I found my big girl panties.

Well, sort of. I don't actually wear panties. Its a figure of speech. But you knew that right? Being the wise crowd that you are.
Anyway, I made my appointment. I am now set to have my "consultation" with Dr.L for June 10th at 2:30. Where I'm sure he will look at my chart and say "mmhhmm, I see you're having problems conceiving" and I'll say something like "no shit? What gave it away? The 2 years we've been trying, or the fact that I've already done an IUI with no results? Or is it the fact that my husband has wonky jizz?" and then, he'll most likely do some poking and prodding of my cock pit. We'll see how much doctors really do differ.
Will he think we should continue on with the plan of action Dr.C and I had chosen, or will he think we need to try something else? Will I be able to use all the meds that are sitting in my fridge mocking me? Or will he want to try a different protocol? Time will tell.

I do feel a small sense of relief that I've finally made the appointment.
I'm walking around my infertility horse. Circling. Looking at her from all sides. I've stroked her, and I've put the saddle on...

How long before I ride again?

Now, I'm off to make pumpkin muffins. Yea, thats right...

19 comments:

Gwen said...

Yay for big girl panties! I'm glad you made the appointment...I know how much you want this. As much of a pain in the ass it is, it will be so worth it to have a little sweet baby girl or boy in your arms. I really, really hope it works for you this time.

Sarah said...

Me too Gwen, me too.

Casey said...

Yeah!!! I am so glad that you decided to go ahead with the plan of action!! I know it is going to work for you this time. I feel it. Now, lets talk about me getting some of those pumpkin muffins, one of my favs!

Xbox4NappyRash said...

Cock pit.

I like.

Sarah said...

Casey- Um, I dont do the beach. I hate it. Besides, I dont even own a bathing suit. As for the pumpkin muffins...I think I may have done something wrong. They arent very muffin-y.

X- I figured you would.

Chris said...

Wonky Jizz was a band I played the cowbell in.

Sarah said...

Chris, we need more cowbell!

PJ said...

LMAO @ wonky jizz!

You should just say, "let's get this party started", and I'm sure he'll understand.

I had two shelves on a cabinet of meds that I tried to ignore. I'm still finding stuff that I'd forgotten about. If you ever need GonalF needles, I'm your girl. I don't think anyone could possibly use them all.

Glad you're hanging around the horse again. ;)

Rassles said...

Oh, I LOVE ponies.

Just Caz said...

I think your doing great.
I think its great that your taking your time before you jump back in..

I'm sorry your cock pit has to be poked around again.

and I hope that the meds you have can be of use, and that you'll get KTFU.

Yup..
Positive thoughts for you in your big girl pants

Sarah said...

PJ- Thanks hun. I have 2 Gonal-F pens sitting in the fridge flipping me off every time I reach for the mayo.

Rass- Gah! Its not a pony its a horse!

Caz- Ok love, we need to get two things straight. I LOVE, love, love having my cock pit poked, dont get me wrong. Its who is doing the poking that irks me. Also? Can we please not call them 'big girl pants'? It just sounds so....FAT. =)

cozzie laura said...

I reserve the right to steal "cockpit" since it made me laugh out loud, although, I don't know if I can be your friend if you don;t like the beach.

Sarah said...

Laura- Ok, ok...maybe I was a bit hasty when I said I hate the beach. I dont actually hate it. I just hate ME being on it. I'm extraordinarily self conscious. Also, you may use 'cock pit' anytime you like. Its a good one. =)

Just Caz said...

I would never throw shoes at you for having an opinion.
Especially when your awesome.
I don't know the full story, I honestly don't.
She hates him.. and that for me is hard to understand.

But its more than a little bit common for women to get the better end of the stick in divorces, even if the guy's a good father.

Lea said...

Hey! I got your note on my blog. I don't see a way to email you... you can email me at suzanne3721(at)hotmail.com - then I can fill you in. :)

Dirty Pirate Hooker said...

hehehehehehe, you said cockpit.

Sarah said...

Caz- Men do it as well, trust me.

Lea- Just sent an e-mail your way.

DPH- Sure did, gotta bunch of 'em. When you have doctors playing around in your vagina, for a week at a clip ya gotta keep the names fresh. =)

Dirty Pirate Hooker said...

Well, I've always been a big fan of cumdumpster and meat wallet, but cock pit was new for me. Thanfor expanding my vocabulary. Its no wonder I fucking love you.

Sarah said...

DPH- Well, yea.