Tuesday, April 6, 2010

I would rather have just gotten my period.

I took a pregnancy test this morning. I didn't want to. Seriously, I am fucking irritated that I had to piss on yet another HPT. But, I needed to know so that I could have enough time to have my meds sent to me. Looks like I'll be calling freedom pharmacy and ordering my meds in just a little while. I'm not surprised. I knew it was coming, I'm just mad that I had to pee on a stick to find out. Fucking infertility. Seriously fucking rude.

I'm so fucking over all of this. My face is breaking out like a goddamn teenager, I am 100% sick and fucking tired of cramming hard white tablets up my snatch, I am fucking evil(more so than normal) thanks to all the hormones, I've lost hours at work, I'm stressed right the fuck out. Part of me wants to take a break. The other part, the part that keeps screaming "YOU'RE 30!!" says no way, do it now. Fuck, fuck, fuckity fuck.

Freedom Pharmacy, here I come.


Amber said...

False negative? I'll be sitting here in a pretzel all day crossing my parts that the red menace doesn't make her appearance..and if she does then I'll make you a red menace voodoo doll and you can stab pins in her eyes. That should teach her.

Just me said...

I'm sick of all this too. My husband tried explaining it to his friend the other day: "It's like A's been pregnant for a year and a half with all the hormones she's on... but without a baby at the end."

The hardest part for me is the weight I've gained. I feel so disgusting right now I can't believe III ever wants to have sex with me. But he does... Huh.

Anonymous said...

Damn. I'm sorry. I was hoping for a nice surprise. I know it's hard to keep going. Big hugs.

p.s. my word verification word is "armed" - LOL!!!

Anonymous said...

I would rather just get my period too ... that stupid negative test just mocks me.

womb for improvement said...

I'm amazed that peeing on a stick didn't actually start your period. Like it normally does.

Sorry hun.

Sarah said...

Amber- I totally got scolded by my RE's office because I "forgot" to take my vagi tab this AM. She said 13dpo is too early. Pfft. Since when?! Amazing, I havent started my period. But when I do, I'll let you know and I'll await my Red Menace Voodoo Doll. ;)

JM- Gah! Tell me about it! I feel so disgusting. Like a big fat pig. *sigh* Just imagine what I'll look like once I actually reach pregnancy. SHIT.

MPO- It sucks to keep going. Sometimes I just feel like giving up.

Azmamma- Seriously. I think when you actually WANT it to be positive its even more glaringly negative than it should be. Almost like its lit up!

WFI- Actually, so am I. I fully expected to have my period by now. Fucking body just loooooves messing with me.

Courtney said...

I can't say anything but Damn it all to hell!

PS I thought I was the only one that said "fuckity fuck" hehe- I should have known you would say it too!

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