Sunday, June 13, 2010

My 1B appointment.

Again, this was sorta a waste of time. Again, it was all information I knew and had already discussed with my doctor. Oh well. Just another thing I can check off my list of things to do before IVF.

At this meeting it was decided that:

* We're doing ICSI.
* We're going to transfer two embryos.
* I need to quit smoking (Keep your judgment to yourself)
* We're going to freeze any remaining embryos (Thankfully my clinic offers a payment plan)
* We will do assisted hatching, if necessary.
* We will not be freezing sperm.
* I will most likely be doing ganirelix, but who knows.
* I need to call on cycle day one of my next cycle to set up the mock transfer. Blech.
* I will probably begin this IVF crap in either August or September.



And thats that.

Soooooo, I need to quit smoking AND lose weight. I am going to be a fucking peach! This should be a ball of fucking sunshine and rainbows. Meh.

In other news, but still related to IF. Yesterday was the first time in a long time, I felt the hot sting in ,my eyes when I found out someone else was pregnant. Someone I dont even know. This girl came into my pharmacy with a prescription from the ER for pre-natal vitamins. She was disgusting. She was filthy. I mean like, I wanted to take a shower after helping her. Caked in filth and grime. On state insurance. And just plain fucking nasty. And the stench? I cant even describe it. And SHE is pregnant. And I am NOT. She cant even care for herself, and she is going to have a baby. And I am NOT. How is any of this fair??

Its not. None of it is.

8 comments:

Bonnie said...

Woopie!!!

Have you also thought about doing acupuncture during IVF? I did it and it didn't work for me but it's "supposed" to help in general. I was under the impression that it wouldn't hurt chances any, KWIM?

Also, lots of healthy foods. Fruits and veg. Avoid soy and caffeine. Avoid those fake sugars. Lots of water will help your body absorb the meds. Make sure to schedule bed rest after transfer.

Those are all the things I would do if I had to do IVF over again to better my chances the next time around. :)

Paula Keller said...

If you have to quit smoking and loose weight then you should take up some other hobby like drinking to satiate yourself. ;) wink

And yep... crack whores and the like seem to have such excellent fertility. So unfair.

Kahla said...

Just think how worth it all this will be (don't you get sick of hearing that, at least it's true). Hope time flies for you!

Anonymous said...

Definately NOT fair, but I'm hoping that your turn is coming around! Lots of luck the smoking & weight loss. You can do it! :)

Liz said...

There is nothing about this that is fair. (But and I know I shouldn't get excited on your behalf - two embryos what if ...)

'Murgdan' said...

NOT fair, but I'm wishing you all the best. And quitting smoking is HARD. I did it. But only (at the time) because my husband hated it so so disgustingly. But you can do it. It's hard as hell, but you can do it.

(and I'm with PJ on the drinking suggestion).

Hang in there.

Sarah said...

Bon- Whats KWIM?

PJ- Apparently I need to just become a filthy meth head in order to get pregnant. Its ridiculous. I may very well take up drinking.

Kahla- All for the greater good. :)

MPO- Thanks hun. Its not going to be fun or easy.

WFI- The "what ifs" are mind numbing. :)

Murgdan- Quitting smoking is the hardest thing I have ever attempted. And I've done some shit in my life. So far this is the only thing I have set my mind to, that I have yet to accomplish. Grrrrr!

Kelley- Oh I go on swearing tyrants about this all the damn time.

Kansas said...

Yes, pick up drinking and cocaine and you'll be sure to get knocked up.

BTW, KWIM means know what I mean;)