For oh so many reasons. Shall I list them? Hmmmm, that could take a while. I don't have that much time and I'm sure you all don't want to sit here and read pages upon pages of things I think are fucked up. And if you do, send me an e-mail, we'll have a private session. Instead why don't I just focus on the ones that are most prominent now.
For starters, I just came from the doctors. My regular doctor, no coochey docs today! But, guess what I have? Betcha cant. G'head....take a shot. No? Okay, okay....I have MRSA.
Yea, fucking MRSA. In. my. nose. Fuck me sideways. Now, I realize that there are a high percentage of people who carry it in their noses(the tip) and never ever show any signs or symptoms. Not I. I have a big ass infection. And it hurts like a mother-bitcher. So, for the next 5 days I will be smearing goo up there in the hopes that it will clear up. If in 5 days its still there. I'll do another 5 days. And if after the 10 friggin days of me having a gooey nose, its STILL there. Dr.B will start me on an oral antibiotic. Wahoo. Y'know....I didn't really have enough going on. I needed ONE MORE FUCKING THING. I didn't have enough to stress about. Or worry. Or obsess over, I needed this. This is AWESOME! Eat a dick universe. You cant hold me down. What!
Okay, and how about the fact that there are people out there who have NO DAMN RIGHT to be having children, and yet.....they are. Tell me, whats the universes plan for that? Woman and men for that matter that should NOT be having babies, get to. Irresponsible people. People with no plans, or a future. People who shouldn't be allowed to bring more(or any) babies into this world. But they are. And then there are the people who are good people. Good parents. Intelligent people. With jobs, and a future and the capabilities of taking care of and raising a baby and they aren't able to. How does this make sense? If I believed in god, I would say hes a real wanker! Because if its "gods will" to make us suffer, and PAY a fucking doctor to get us pregnant while these low lifes can do it on their own....I'd rather pray to my cats ass. Thank you very much. If its "gods will" to bring more babies into the world to be abused and neglected because people who SHOULDN'T be having kids, are. I don't fucking think so. I'll pray to something else, like my rose bush in the back yard. If its all the same to you.
Or how about the fact that my husband and I work our asses off so we can pay bills, raise our son, put food on the table and have health insurance. And then there are the creeps who are leeching off the system. 8 kids, no job, living on welfare. Why? Because they can. The state will help them with housing, food, and they have ALL of there medical needs met. No Dr's bills to pay. No prescription co-pays. NADA. Oh, and hey...if they decide to whore it up and get pregnant with kid number 9, by guy number 7....the state will pay for that too. And here we are paying $170 a WEEK for shitty ass insurance. While our taxes pay the way for other people. Don't get me wrong, I am all for helping people get on their feet. But lets be real here, if you are 24 years old, perfectly healthy and ABLE to work, and have been on state assisted funds for YEARS, its time to put your big girl panties on and BE A FUCKING ADULT. And thats all I am going to say on this matter. I've already blogged about my feelings here.
I have a headache, which I'm told may be due to the MRSA. Yea. OK. I think its due to stress personally. But what the hell do I know? Oh wait! I'm the one who self diagnosed the MRSA. So maybe I DO know a thing or two about a thing or two. Meh.
10 days and counting till dear Flo comes for her visit. I have no hopes for this month. Honestly, I'm sick to death of hoping, and being let down. So I am giving my body the middle finger(and not in a fun way either!) and preparing to have the HSG done. Still not pleased about that, but I already had my freak out and now I just want to get it done and over with so we can move on and HOPEFULLY get my fat ass pregnant. Y'know.
OH! And speaking of fat asses. My doctor was of no help. I asked his advice. He told me I'm not eating enough. Pardon? I'm fat because I don't eat enough?! Helloooooo? He's in cahoots with the universe.
Shooooooot! I'll eat more. Can I sue for malpractice when I gain even more weight?
This post is entirely to long.
I quit this bitch.