Sunday, February 7, 2010

Meh

Things just are not progressing the way I thought they would....*sigh*

Went for yet another blood draw and ultra sound this morning, and my follicles just don't seem to be growing at the rate that I thought they would. I dunno. I mean, I'm not a doctor. Clearly. But I just feel like things are at a stand still. I'll be staying at the 112.5 dose of Gonal-F for the next two nights, and then I go in for ANOTHER blood draw and ultra sound on Tuesday morning at 7:30. I feel like a human pin cushion. It took two jabs to get my blood this morning, which is weird because I actually have really good veins. Usually. I'm betting that I'm developing a bit of scar tissue. Oh and entirely too many people have seen my vagina in the past couple of weeks. I'm just sayin.

I feel discouraged. I just hope they know what they are doin. I'm still not convinced that they do.

14 comments:

Layne said...

I have been following along with your blog, I too have been going though fertility treatment! KEEP HOPE!! Last month I went in on day 8 and I only had ONE folicle that was at 13...2 days later it was at 14.8....I had lost all hope!! I went in 2 days later to yell at my doctor and AMAZINGLY that one folicle went up to a 22 perfect and ready to ovulate,it was only one folicle (we were hoping for 5, but better than none!) Good luck!http://infertilityblue.blogspot.com/

Bon said...

Come on now. Not ENOUGH people can see your vagina. Blood draws are fun! Let us dance and sing the happy infertile song. falalalala.

;)

Sarah said...

Layne- Yea, I just feel discouraged. I know things can change in a day or two, but I guess I had just hoped for something a bit quicker. I've always been the instant gratification type. lol
Thanks for reading btw!

Bon- I think if infertility had a theme song, it would be something loud and angry. No happy songs here.

PJ said...

I'm catching up. I do think GonalF is stronger than follistim. It's more "pure" or something. And so freakin' expensive! I know 112 of GonalF would have done NOTHING for me, but it did take several cycles for them to figure out the right dosage/protocol so don't get too discouraged.

Crinone sounds expensive. My progesterone in oil was $10 a vial (about 2 weeks worth), with insurance. But, my poor ass!

The follicles can spike quickly though. I think my last cycle I was thinking things were going really slow (worried too slow), and I wound up with a bunch all of a sudden.

Cheering for you!

Sarah said...

PJ- But I ovulate perfectly normal on my own, so I thought I would have really produced using Gonal-F. I dunno.

Yes, the crinone is ridiculously priced. Over $200 to shove gel up my twat...yay me.

womb for improvement said...

If it is any consolation when I had my scans things didn't progress constantly - there were definitely growth spurts. Good luck.

Sarah said...

WFI- Considering you didnt get pregnant, no, that doesnt really make me feel a whole lot better. Thanks though. :)

Amber said...

Urgh...crap. I experienced infertility, but never went through treatment besides emergency surgery to remove and ectopic and a bunch of stage 3 endometriosis. It sucks so much to know people are going through the same thing I did...I hate it. I actually stress out leading up to the big reveal of if the treatments worked or not. Xbox? I was rushing to my computer when I figured they would have known to see and then making myself focus and read the whole post instead of jumping to the good part. I hope it happens for you...I really do.

Theres this book I remember reading and something in it gave me lots of hope, but I can't think of the title. When I think of it, i'll let you know.

Sarah said...

Amber- Yea, if you figure out the name let me know. I'm always down for a good read.

April said...

I'll keep my fingers crossed that things change for the better before you go in! Good luck hun!

Sarah said...

Thanks, April. I go in tomorrow bright and early. I'm doing some finger crossing for myself. I just need a couple to behave and get nice and big.

myprettyones said...

Sorry for the slow progress. I feel the same way! I have stimmed for 14 days so far. I think that's a lot. They are always worried about PCOSers over producing, but I've had the opposite problem - and slow progress. So, maybe we are just all different and need different dosages? I don't know. I hope both of us get lucky this time and don't have to do it again! Good luck today...

Xbox4NappyRash said...

Follicles really are crazy sons of bitches. You can have huge growth for 2 or 3 days and think you are gonna bust and then end up with nothing, and vice versa.

As infuriating as it is, its one day at a time.

Kansas said...

Sorry honey, that really sucks the big one.