Sunday, February 7, 2010

Meh

Things just are not progressing the way I thought they would....*sigh*

Went for yet another blood draw and ultra sound this morning, and my follicles just don't seem to be growing at the rate that I thought they would. I dunno. I mean, I'm not a doctor. Clearly. But I just feel like things are at a stand still. I'll be staying at the 112.5 dose of Gonal-F for the next two nights, and then I go in for ANOTHER blood draw and ultra sound on Tuesday morning at 7:30. I feel like a human pin cushion. It took two jabs to get my blood this morning, which is weird because I actually have really good veins. Usually. I'm betting that I'm developing a bit of scar tissue. Oh and entirely too many people have seen my vagina in the past couple of weeks. I'm just sayin.

I feel discouraged. I just hope they know what they are doin. I'm still not convinced that they do.

12 comments:

Malachi and Layne said...

I have been following along with your blog, I too have been going though fertility treatment! KEEP HOPE!! Last month I went in on day 8 and I only had ONE folicle that was at 13...2 days later it was at 14.8....I had lost all hope!! I went in 2 days later to yell at my doctor and AMAZINGLY that one folicle went up to a 22 perfect and ready to ovulate,it was only one folicle (we were hoping for 5, but better than none!) Good luck!http://infertilityblue.blogspot.com/

Sarah said...

Layne- Yea, I just feel discouraged. I know things can change in a day or two, but I guess I had just hoped for something a bit quicker. I've always been the instant gratification type. lol
Thanks for reading btw!

Bon- I think if infertility had a theme song, it would be something loud and angry. No happy songs here.

Paula Keller said...

I'm catching up. I do think GonalF is stronger than follistim. It's more "pure" or something. And so freakin' expensive! I know 112 of GonalF would have done NOTHING for me, but it did take several cycles for them to figure out the right dosage/protocol so don't get too discouraged.

Crinone sounds expensive. My progesterone in oil was $10 a vial (about 2 weeks worth), with insurance. But, my poor ass!

The follicles can spike quickly though. I think my last cycle I was thinking things were going really slow (worried too slow), and I wound up with a bunch all of a sudden.

Cheering for you!

Sarah said...

PJ- But I ovulate perfectly normal on my own, so I thought I would have really produced using Gonal-F. I dunno.

Yes, the crinone is ridiculously priced. Over $200 to shove gel up my twat...yay me.

Liz said...

If it is any consolation when I had my scans things didn't progress constantly - there were definitely growth spurts. Good luck.

Sarah said...

WFI- Considering you didnt get pregnant, no, that doesnt really make me feel a whole lot better. Thanks though. :)

Amber said...

Urgh...crap. I experienced infertility, but never went through treatment besides emergency surgery to remove and ectopic and a bunch of stage 3 endometriosis. It sucks so much to know people are going through the same thing I did...I hate it. I actually stress out leading up to the big reveal of if the treatments worked or not. Xbox? I was rushing to my computer when I figured they would have known to see and then making myself focus and read the whole post instead of jumping to the good part. I hope it happens for you...I really do.

Theres this book I remember reading and something in it gave me lots of hope, but I can't think of the title. When I think of it, i'll let you know.

Sarah said...

Amber- Yea, if you figure out the name let me know. I'm always down for a good read.

Anonymous said...

I'll keep my fingers crossed that things change for the better before you go in! Good luck hun!

Sarah said...

Thanks, April. I go in tomorrow bright and early. I'm doing some finger crossing for myself. I just need a couple to behave and get nice and big.

Anonymous said...

Sorry for the slow progress. I feel the same way! I have stimmed for 14 days so far. I think that's a lot. They are always worried about PCOSers over producing, but I've had the opposite problem - and slow progress. So, maybe we are just all different and need different dosages? I don't know. I hope both of us get lucky this time and don't have to do it again! Good luck today...

Kansas said...

Sorry honey, that really sucks the big one.