When I asked WHY I was hurting so badly and why I am the only one hurting, a friend of mine told me this:
Because you love. You put yourself out there, the only way to be. Some people are somehow able to up and leave a situation without feeling it. They are not capable of really loving anything. You will survive. You will love and you will be loved. Its not your fault you feel things to your core. You are human- sensitive. Some people never feel what you feel because they can't. You have nothing to hide. You can stand there and know you live up front, real, and sincerely. I'm very sorry you have to feel like this, and it may be cold comfort, but it serves as an affirmation of who you are. You're a good person.
And somehow, it made me feel a little better.